I really want to blog, regularly. It’s true. – I don’t really know why I keep consistently putting it off. Why would I ever trust myself when I tell myself I want to blog and then I don’t? As humans we do this to ourselves all the time. There are a number of places in my life that I tell myself I want to do something and that it’s really important to me, but then I don’t. I don’t honor the commitments I make to myself. It also makes me question whether or not I can truly be there for others if I can’t often be there for myself- in the smallest of ways. The blog is a shining example of this for me. I see it on my calendar every day as an action item. And it gets overlooked. Meanwhile, I get a lot of other things done but there is something nagging at me that makes me feel unsatisfied and upset with myself.

At times we need to evaluate our current reality- We have to start by honoring the promises we make to ourselves. That begins for me with blogging regularly. Not blogging so that people can read what I have to say – but because it’s important for me to put my words out there in the world so that I can live by them. So that I can see what I value on paper, what’s important to me, what I like, and who I am. Seeing my thoughts reflected in writing enables me to better recognize where I am -and map out where I want to go. So without making myself wrong for not keeping these commitments, I am grateful that they have surfaced enough for me to realize how I can move beyond the obstacles.